When I reflect on 2012 (after all this is what we do on New Years Eve right?)
This year had many challenges for me.
- Trying to face the reality of my Mom having stage 4 lung cancer is probably top of that list of challenges.
I think I have come to terms with it as much as I can. I find myself looking at her and see such amazing strength for a women of 83.
She goes to Chemo on Thursday for 2 weeks and then she has a week off.
She had several trips to the hospital this year when her white count and red count dropped or when she actually dropped (Had a few pass out falls)
Even a stay in ICU did not keep her down.
I have such an admiration for the nurses in the hospital as well as all the staff at the Oncologist office and especially her Dr. and ALL the Chemo nurses.
I am not sure what 2013 will bring for my Mom but I do know her strength has helped me so much in this last year to dig deep down and find my own faith and strength.
- Trying to keep my cool during this election year.
I have never felt so torn apart as a Country. I think social media, as much as I enjoy it brought out the worst in people during the election.
I am tired of the US vs THEM attitudes
I learned the hard way about Facebook Baters- you know, those who post as if to have a conversation or discussion about the election only to find out they post for you to agree with them ONLY and use facebook as their platform for dividing people rather than bringing people together.
The good thing that came out of that for me - taking advantage of facebook blocking :)
Lets say it is great to live in a country where we have FREEDOM and we have the CHOICE to vote for the person WE think will do the best job. Regardless of who wins the goal should be to back them and hope for the best since after all it is the country WE live in.
- Seeing senseless shootings / deaths
It is heartbreaking to think innocent children are dead and courageous teachers and staff because of someone who was so mentally unstable.
What should have been a fun night at the movies ended in tragedy, again because of someone who was mentally sick.
Can't even count all the nights I put on the news to see shooting here or there or an adult or child was caught in the crossfire.
- My own struggle with panic attacks to the point of keeping me home and missing time with family or friends
I am so happy to see light at the end of the tunnel. I have been able to get out and enjoy my life again. I can be with friends and go to dinner or away and have FUN.
I am so grateful for the friends and family who have helped me, encouraged me and shown more patience then I ever would or could have expected. They did not give up on me.
The kids have been so encouraging and of course Mark who has been the best friend and husband I could ask for.
- Faith
I feel like I am at a stage where I am peaceful. I surrender I am not in control of everything and I have to let go and trust. (this was a tuff one for me)
I am work in progress but I will make conscious effort to make sure I am the best I can be.
Bottom line of my reflection today
There may be a lot of bad out there but there sure is a lot of good out there too.
We can choose to focus on the bad and be a part of the problem or we can choose to be a part of the good and focus on the pay it forward attitude.
I will work each day to focus on the good in this world and all the good I have in my life.
My 2013 resolutions????
ummm still working on them :)
